A lonesome deer

A lone deer I feel, 

A lonesome dear I'll be, 

standing by this tree, 

whose roots are anchored, 

but leaves are spreading,

so hope for my dear you'll be. 

Sometimes I think my desire to travel is just a desire to escape this one life. But, I have a desire to live a million lives. 

The heart of my being

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover. 
Mark Twain

I find that this quote chimes so truly with the heart of my being. Not because I live so fastly by it, but because I strive so much to live as if I did.

I see it all around me…to live, you must live life to its fullest, have confidence in yourself, explore, dream, discover. It’s a very important thing…the goals of our existence. The goal of our being… the heart of my being. But under my mask…my confidence is dashed and my heart is crumbling. I want to share it with you…I wish I could share it with you all. But these walls of self-doubt and anxiety chain me to a pot-holed surface of un-lived dreams and desires. Instead, I let the frivolities of life scrape at the surface of my deeply entombed existence.

So you say, one must push the boat out? Yes I see… and for me, this is a question of living or dying. Surely, the answer is easy. To live, or to die. Which would you choose? But, I feel that achieving this answer is the most difficult part. It’s all the working out…that’s where the majority of the marks lie for this test. 

So I know that I must continue to work at this…the heart of my being…so that one day I may be even further from my anchored harbour and closer to my sails of discovery.  

To live truly, now that is a daring adventure.